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Two.

9 Jun

Two years ago almost at this very moment, my water broke. We are hoping we don’t have a repeat today or tomorrow of that as her brother is coming soon – but two years ago our lives were about to change so much for the better.

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Sweet Newborn Girl (Photo Credit: Galati Photography)

The past two years have been full of growing and learning as parents and as a kiddo.  I do know that I have the best job in the world – being her mom. I still find my footing here and there, but it’s definitely what makes life worth living and I am grateful for each and every day I get with her and my family.  Seeing the world through her eyes is just simply amazing.

We’ve had lots of changes over the past year.  We switched daycares (which was the BEST decision we ever made), our jobs have changed, but mostly we’ve gotten to see our little girl grow and she grew a lot.

What are her favorite foods? She will try almost everything. She loves condiments – especially ketchup, noodles, ice cream, yogurt, any kind of fruit (and I do mean any!). She had some steak and sushi recently again and she loved them both.

How many words does she say? Probably close to a thousand. She talks a TON. She’s constantly amazing us with words and short sentences. Her latest one is, “Coming Soon.” We think she picked it up from the movies she’s asked to watch. Best thing she says “I love you, Mommy” or “I love you, Daddy.” She says these on an almost daily basis.

Current Obsessions? Finding Nemo (Hank the Octopus), Beauty and the Beast,  Word Party, and Bambi – along with anything Mickey Mouse/Fab 6 related when the mood strikes her.

Developmental wise? Right on track from the quizzes and ahead in some areas. She can count from 1-10 some days solo, other days with assistance. She knows her shapes and a lot of colors. She has fantastic fine and gross motor skills.  She runs, jumps, plays, and is an extremely active two year old. Switching her daycare was the best decision we ever made as watching her grow this past year is such a blessing. I’m constantly amazed by the social, educational, and emotional skills she’s learning.

Favorite Toy? So many – bubbles, balls, her bikes, Mickey Mouse Fisher Price House, her play kitchen. She also loves airplanes and trucks/trains.

Tantrums? They happen – they are a part of life. They are really just her struggling because we misunderstand or she can’t communicate with us what she wants. Through her school, we found a great way of dealing with them through conscious discipline and it actually works and helps us move on.

Favorite things as a family? She LOVES water (agua), so we’ve spent a lot of time at the Disney Water Parks and the beach over the past year. We’ve traveled to Disneyland and gone on a lot of adventures around home to Theme Parks, playgrounds, and picked a lot of fruit – blueberry, strawberries, and peaches. I can’t wait to go back to the farms next year.

Favorite activities?  Anything outside – bubbles, going to the park, playing on her new play structure outside, visiting Disney World, trains, and going on adventures with Mom and Dad.

Favorite Books? She LOVES to “read” and have us read to her. She loves the Carl Books, Where’s Spot?, Sandra Boynton books, any books about animals, and still loves doing You Are TuTu Cute.

Favorite Character? Nemo, Dory, Hank, Minnie, Mickey, Daisy, Donald, Goofy, Pluto

How do we think she will adapt to big brother? To be determined. We don’t have any expectations for her. The next few months will be a big adjustment for all of us. She calls for baby brother and knows he’s in my tummy, but how she reacts when he gets home will be determined by her. I’m not trying to set any expectations so she can just be herself.

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Photo Credit: Lady Blue Photography by Nerissa Johnson

What do we expect for the next year? Keep being yourself kid. The next year will be full of adjustments for all of us.  We will struggle, we will learn, and we will find our new normal.  You bring us so much joy and teach us so much. Keep dreaming, keep learning, and keep living – I can’t wait to see where the next year takes us through the struggles, the happiness, and the small moments that really added up make amazing moments as we are together as a family.  You are what makes my heart sing with happiness.  I love you so much sweet girl and I always will.

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Happy Birthday Sweet Girl. (Photo Credit: Lady Blue Photography from Nerissa Johnson)

 

13 month Mommy thoughts…

26 Jul

13 months of pure happiness, joy, new discoveries, tantrums, and curiosity. It’s been a great 13 months.  Today on my “On this day” on Facebook, I saw a status that stated that my time of being a SAHM with Miss L was almost over and how much I will miss it. That statement is so incredibly true.  I wanted to reflect and blog today, so I’m taking advantage of our afternoon crib naps to update this.  Maybe someday I’ll do more organized blogs on the topics below, but I am going to do this in list format as there’s lots of random thoughts that I have going through my mind currently.

Vacationing with a infant/toddler – In a month we will soon be going on our next traveling adventure with Miss L. We’ve already been to where we grew up and a cruise.  We’ve been on a cruise ship, planes, and car rides.  Next month we’re going on our next adventure to Disneyland!  We can’t wait to spend another week together as a family and see how Miss L does with her next few plane rides.  We bought her a seat again (It’s the best way to travel with a baby in my opinion) as she did so amazing on our first plane rides.  We’re looking forward to seeing how she enjoys Disneyland, but completely understand it will be a more relaxed trip with plenty of downtime and afternoon naps back at our hotel.

Walking – Miss L is so incredibly close to walking. She has taken a few steps without holding on to anything and pushes furniture around to help her walk. She just needs a bit of confidence and then she’ll be off. She loves to walk and hold onto our hands.  I can’t wait to see her take off toddling and developing her new mobile skills.

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Photo Credit: Galati Photography (galatiphoto.com)

 

Daycare – We are on the last week of her current daycare.  We’ve had many issues with her care there – missed diaper changes, missed snacks/feedings, calling her by the wrong name, leaving her just lying in a crib when she could be up playing, etc.  I will miss her two main teachers as they are the only two that show us they care and they find Miss L hilarious. We’ve shared our concerns with management and been blown off multiple times. We’ve also been told that “We’re too sensitive.” The first time I actually had a productive conversation with a manager at her current center was when I handed in her withdraw paper work. Too little too late though.   We have a week where we are relying on some wonderful friends to take care of her and assist us with child care. We’re hopeful and looking forward to our new daycare. I still wish 13769579_962294682793_9074824968871311002_nthat I could stay home with her more, but it’s not in the current cards.  Maybe in the future, but we’re looking forward to a daycare that does more than just lets her entertain herself. I hope we are happier in our moves.

Family Fun Time – After having the flu last weekend, we’re slowly getting the house back in order and slowly catching up on things.  We managed to sneak away to Magic Kingdom yesterday for a few hours and had lunch at Chef Mickey’s at the Contemporary. We wanted to test out a character buffet with Miss L before we go to Goofy’s Kitchen at Disneyland. It was a success. She loved the food and the characters entertained her. She played peek-a-boo with Donald for a bit and gave Minnie a huge grin.  She did cry hysterically whenever one of us left the table for more foo though. As soon as she couldn’t see you anymore, she was better, but this will definitely make for a fun entertaining meal next month.

Mommy shaming – In the past 13 months, I’ve joined the status of Mom and seen how other mom’s treat each other.  I am appalled how rude Mom’s can be to each other. We’re all working towards the same goals – raising a healthy, happy human being.  It doesn’t matter if you cloth diaper, breastfeed, use formula, work, stay at home, or one of millions of other parenting choices.  Stop the shaming and just try to support each other. It’s tough enough without other Mom’s putting you down for parenting choices that really don’t matter as long as your child is happy and cared for.  It’s something I always try to keep in mind while interacting with other parents and wish other parents used the same consideration.

Swim Lessons – Miss L has been taking swim lessons for the past five weeks. It’s really just about water safety and teaching her that if she’d accidentally end up in a body of water, to flip over onto her back and float.  It’s been amazing to see her learn since she can only say a few words, but in the past five weeks her teacher has managed to teach her how to roll onto her back in the water and float.  It’s been a challenge at times getting her to swim lessons as they are four days a week for 10 minutes a day, but they are entirely worth it. I’m so thankful we can afford them for her. We’re definitely planning on taking her back next year to learn how to swim some.

Nap time/Bedtime – We used to do our naps at home snuggling in a chair and rocking our sweet girl.  Over the last few weeks, we’ve started having her nap in her crib. She naps a lot longer and seems to be more comfortable. We walk her to sleep and then put her in her crib during the day, but we’ve learned she can put herself to sleep. Over bedtime for the last week, she’s been a bit hyper.  She nurses and then plays/cuddles with me, but doesn’t always quite fall asleep. We’ve learned that I can put her in her crib wide awake and she’ll put herself to sleep. I give her a kiss, make sure her room is set up for bedtime, tell her goodnight and leave the room. She watches you go – but eventually puts herself to sleep after rolling around in her crib for a bit.  We really do have the best child ever.

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Cute and the best baby ever! (Photo Credit: Galati Photography – Galatiphoto.com)

 

A year ago…

9 Jun

A year ago at this very moment, I thought I was tired.  I thought I knew what was about to happen, but I really had no clue. As a year ago I was getting ready for bed, crawling into bed and then I heard a “pop.” That pop was the start of the most wonderful journey that I’ve ever experienced.  Four hours later a few hours after midnight (after probably one of the shortest labors most people will ever hear about), I met one amazing little girl who has continued to light up my life and help me find my destiny ever since.

The past year has been challenging and life changing. You think you’re tired? Have a baby, work a full time job, live far away from family or most people who’d you consider asking for help, and just rely on your husband who also works a full time job often with opposite hours. Then I will believe you are tired.  Have any child for that matter, and you will know the definition of tired.

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How those nap photos of changed in a year, but I’m still incredibly grateful for each and every nap cuddle!

It’s also been wonderful. It’s amazing to think of myself as to where I was a year ago jumping into motherhood and where I am now. I’ve found my inner voice as being her mother. I speak up for what’s best for her. I fight for what she deserves. I find a way to give her everything I can and to keep her safe, healthy, happy, and loved. She is oh-so-very-much loved.

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It’s been interesting. I started out breastfeeding as I knew I wanted to. My goal was six months. There were some nights early on when she wanted to eat ALL THE TIME that I was wondering if I could make it three months. There were nights when she just kept eating that I was nervous I wasn’t producing enough milk. Before we knew it, I had hit six months. We introduced solid foods and it was all easy enough from there. Yes, I dedicated all my breaks at work to pumping. I was lucky enough to have a bit of a freezer stash for the days that I didn’t quite pump enough.  I successfully am a full-time working mother who managed to exclusively breastfeed their child for an entire year.  I’m proud of that statement. (I would like to state that I don’t care if you breastfeeding or formula feed as long as your child is well fed and taken care of. Good for you mom, no matter what you did!)  Yes, the last few months got easier as I was able to transition to working at home and I can pump while I work. It’s a glorious thing!  Now, here I am a year breastfeeding in and I’m trying to figure out how to start weaning. In the past week, she’s started refusing a bottle and only wants fresh milk. We’ll transition into other liquids at daycare, but how does one wean? That’s my new dilemma, and it’s not something I ever thought of a year ago. It’s a wonderful place to be.

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It’s been a year of discovery. I’ve been finding what’s important and myself. The past year as really made me see that I am meant to be her mother and I love being her mother.  Before I had her, I never got a feeling of “this is where I’m meant to be” as strongly as I do each and every day with her.

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It’s been a year of thanks. After our first pregnancy that ended in miscarriage, I was terrified. I didn’t know if I would ever get pregnant. My entire second pregnancy I was scared. I tried to enjoy it, but it didn’t feel real as what if something happened? She didn’t feel real until she entered the room and then life was magnificent.  Then, I started worrying about SIDs, if she’s safe at daycare, if she’s eating enough, and all other normal mom worries. I’m thankful I was able to have those worries as not every Mom gets a happy ending. So I’ve been thankful and gave thanks as I’ve prayed for this wonderful little girl who lights up my life and I can’t wait to see grow up. I’m grateful and thankful for each and every day. I’ve learned to put my phone down and enjoy the moment more. Enjoy watching this wonderful girl discover, grow, fall down, pick herself back up and try again.

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My big girl watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse.

I hope I am lucky enough to see her grandchildren someday as that’s a wonderful thought.  Happy Birthday Eve Sweet Darling Girl.  Here’s to a wonderful second year and many many more.  I won’t mind if you let me sleep past 2:12 a.m. tonight when you made your appearance and screamed for the next two hours as you didn’t know what happened or where you were.  However, if you want to relive those moments and get Mama cuddles, go ahead and wake me up.  I’d be happy to hold you.

9 month thoughts on Motherhood…

8 Mar

In a few days, I will be the mom to an amazing wonderful nine month old.  I can’t believe it as time is flying, but it is amazing to see her grow, watch her little personality develop, and see how she learns.  Since she went to bed relatively early and I finished making her some more baby food, I figured I’d take the time to update my blog.  She’s still trying to figure out crawling forward, but she can crawl backwards and will look around – see where she wants to go and then position her legs that way.  Smart little cookie!

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Lately, it’s been all about Mom (ever since the cruise it seems). It’s gotten to the point where if she wants to be held by me, she’ll fuss as poor Daddy is holding her while I’m trying to quickly eat my food next to him.  It’s gotten quite silly, and I’m afraid we’ve been giving Daddy a bit of a complex – however, she made up for it with her first word.

What was her first word? Da-Da, of course.  She was looking around and babbling and then said “Da-Da” and looked at him, so of course, I passed her over to him and she said it again!  She has said it a few times since then to her Daddy and it melts his heart. He’s been trying to work on saying Ma-Ma with her, but it takes time.  She tries, and I love that they have this little bond.

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Our little Princess at Bok Tower Gardens

She still loves her food – and eats a lot of it.  She ate 90% of a banana at lunch today and had some pineapple and apple with it.  I still can’t figure out where she is putting all this food, but as long as she’s happy and healthy that’s all that matters -she can eat eat eat.

We’re still making all of her baby food fresh from foods. It’s been an adventure.  I’ve learned how to puree many things – what works, what doesn’t work. I’ve learned how much water I need to use if any as we’re getting into more solid type foods.  However, with how much she eats I’m definitely spending a fair chunk of my time once she’s asleep making baby food.  She’s almost to the point where I’ll just be able to blend up what we’re eating for dinner though which will be an odd adjustment. Until then – I’ll keep making her food.  (Favorites so far would probably be Sweet Potato, Banana, and Avocado with Pears, Apples, Carrots, Asparagus, and Oatmeal as a close second).  I’m definitely glad that I am making her food and with her Baby Bullet it makes it easy.

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Since she is almost nine months, I’m starting to think about her first birthday – with her first birthday there will be changes which is good as it means she’s growing.  However, I realize that our Breastfeeding journey is almost 3/4 of the way over.  When I started breastfeeding, my goal was to make it six months. In those early weeks, I struggled as it was all that I was doing. She loves to eat and wanted to eat all the time. Her cluster feedings drove me crazy, it made me wonder if I was cut for Breastfeeding. Then suddenly without me even realizing it, we made it to six months. Months three through six seemed to fly by breastfeeding wise.  I made it through pumping at work and getting my supply for her. I was proud of my accomplishment and now I realize I’m going to have a new struggle of figuring out how to wean.

Breastfeeding isn’t for everyone and not everyone can, but I am so grateful and thankful that we have this bond. I’ll soon have to learn how to parent without my boobs as it is so easy when she’s fussy or wants to fall asleep to give her some milk which is what she wants and makes her happy. It will be an adjustment, but a good one once I’m through the emotional part of it as it means she’s growing which is the best gift ever.

I’ve learned that as a parent, I’m a big fan of letting the housework wait and spending time watching her play or cuddle.  She naps well at daycare, but one day a week when I could be getting stuff done, I hold her for a nap while I catch up on some DVR’d shows.  It’s our tradition and we both know it and we love it.  I won’t be able to hold her like this forever, she’ll only be little for so long and I plan on getting in all the cuddles I can.  The house will always have to be cleaned and I put her down enough to do it, some days all you need are Mom/Baby cuddles.

We’ve managed to go out for our Anniversary and we realized that we’re okay with how little we get out without her.  Yes we have some wonderful baby sitters since we don’t have family close, but at the end of the day since it is mainly the three of us we like spending that time together.  We’re going out as a family to the Theme Parks a bit more or to Bok Tower Gardens – in fact, i just ordered a travel play yard that we can take to Bok Tower or on other adventures as we continue to watch her explore. (I feel a Beach Trip will be in order soon!)

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Is Motherhood what I thought it would be? Yes and no. There are moments where I have a headache or when she pees on me and I spend the next hour getting her ready for bed in wet clothes that I struggle and I almost wish I’d have a moment to go get medicine or change my clothes and shower.

However, I didn’t imagine that I would lose myself in this amazing little girl and that seeing the world through her eyes is better than anything and warms my heart. Us being together as a family – that is the best gift in the world.

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6 months and counting…

9 Dec

Six months ago at this very moment we were at Celebration hospital, getting ready to meet our little girl. Tonight, we stayed up late (well later than she went to bed) and started to wrap christmas presents. I am feeling a bit reflective on life as I know it will be the first of many nights like this to come in the future and I feel incredibly blessed. 

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Our Girl

It’s been an amazing wonderful tiring six months that I wouldn’t trade for anything. I’m still the obsessive new mom, but I’ve learned to relax a tiny bit. (Sids is still scary, as are disease and strangers, but we’ve got to let her experience life.) We’ve gone on car rides, plane rides, and visited quite a few states. We even managed to get her a passport so we can go on more adventures in the future!

We’ve started to find the new normal in our relationship. My husband and I  have adjusted to our roles and still find time for each other. We’ve managed to slowly work in more of our normal lives, but still are adjusting. We’ve dealt with our first illness where it would be easier to be by family, but we’ve gotten through it together.

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We put her first. She’s learned so much and has such a personality so far. I can’t wait to see her in 10, 20, even 50 years in the future. However, it seems like just yesterday that my curious curly haired girl was joining the world.

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Pondering the world

LO is trying to sit up. She babbles and “pets” the animals by pulling their hair. She also mimcks our eating habits (she will start food next week) and gets upset when she can’t see us. She can roll over and loves to sleep on her side or tummy. She is full of baby giggles and smiles. She really knows how to light up our world.

While I am planning on getting much more sleep than I did six months ago, I am so grateful for the opportunity of being her mom. We are so blessed.

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Happy half birthday little one, your world is about to get a lot more tasty. We love you so much.

Baby giggles are addicting.

30 Oct

Tomorrow ends three glorious weeks that I’ve gotten to spend with our LO. She’s been a delight. She is extremely well behaved as a baby, but there have definitely been some tears. However, none of those matter as they are off set by the amazing sound of baby giggles.

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This is a normal pose for her. She loves that foot.

We’ve done our first craft project (I’ll upload it in a Halloween post that I plan on doing tomorrow.) We’ve taken her to Epcot and Disney’s Hollywood Studios. She’s met some of my coworkers. We’ve had amazing friends visit. It’s been a very good three weeks. (Even me getting sick as Daddy was luckily able to cover and nothing says true love besides that as being sick with a child is worse than just being sick.)

However through all the moments some of my favorites were this afternoon when we were both just laughing and being silly. Her little eyes would just light up as she knew I was going to laugh and just joined in the fun. No toys, just us girls giggling together being silly. Between baby giggles and cuddles I am flying on an emotional high even though I’m still missing some sleep (please, I will be well rested again in a few years). The one thing that would have made it better is our entire family being together. That will just have to wait until our next vacation.

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What is this thing?

LO, I hope you know how unbelievably loved you are.

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Daycare Woes…

22 Oct

As being a working Mom, it means I have to send this adorable little angel to daycare.

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meeting Mickey Mouse for the first time!

It’s great that I have an amazing place to take her.  However, I still wish I could spend all my time with her.  It’s definitely a juggle getting her to daycare and us on with our day.  While I’m at work I can check-up on her to make sure all is fine.  I’m also spending my breaks making her meals for the next day. Each week that I successfully get enough for her meals makes me happy. I’m happy I’m able to breastfeed and provide for her. I know it’s not for everyone and without support, I could have easily jumped off the band wagon as the first few weeks that was all that I did. While I am missing those moments a bit, I still love each successful day!

I’m already doing better not crying dropping her off at daycare.  I only tear up when I hand her over and I try to not cry as I really don’t want her to think anything is wrong as it’s not. Mom is just going to miss her a lot!  Eventually, we will be an expert at this I’m sure.

So until we end up where I can spend all my days with her and make her smile and laugh – or better yet all of us together as a family! I will just be thankful and happy that she has a safe caring place with people to take care of her. Even though I wish she could always be with me.